Almost 3 and yet, Im not feeling a lil` sleepy. Broading abt today's prob tt BABY n I had.
Have been looking forward to this day when mom's inviting her friends as well as relatives back home for a gathering. Buffet was included and of cox, gambling is a must. HE was supposed to come tgr with his mom & sis. However, while i was shopping happily and waiting for time to pass so tt i cld meet him, he called and produced with a bad news telling me he cant book out as he failed whatever test.
This problem has alrdy started way long be4 when I complained tt he has too lil time for me, and promises tt were brokened by him. I cld no longer take it anymore. Chances followed by chances, and yet, he proved nthg but disappointments. So I took a deep breathe, and told him rudely over the phone tt we're OFF. At tt moment, my heart was bleeding, and tears started rolling down from the corners of my eyes. Wanted to stay strong but moreover, we had spent many good times once. Though it felt like a dagger being pierced deeply into my heart, but I believed tt this was the only way to stop me fr suffering again in future.
BABY initially agreed which caused me to feel doubly extra SHIT ! Thinking it was the end for both of us, BABY called, telling me he regretted agreeing with me.
And with all his sweet talkings, persuations, promises and tt sincere heart, once again, I forgave him.
Though everything was over, but it isn't the same anymore. That scar will still be left in my heart, reminding me abt the pain tt i've went thru.
If only he could heal ... ...
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