This shall be a short entry as I have been staying at home the WHOLE of today. Woke up at around noon time. Mildred was having tuition while Esther was still snoring like a pig.

Not long after, Esther woke up and we had lunch tgr as the rest did not wait for us. IDIOTS !!! Have been busy with the com today. Downloading themes and creating my own skins for the theme. Million thanks to the lovely Esther who taught me how to do it and Im so obsessed with it alrdy. Im so freaking happy and satisfied with the themes that I did on my own. They look pretty & awesome okay !! hahas..

After a "long" break, Im finally going school tmrw. Feeling kinda lethargic. Luckily sch starts at 10 and Im able to catch somemore sleep.

Yeahs~ BABY is booking out tmrw. And we're celebrating Daddy's birthday together :)Alright.. Guess that's all for today. Got to go learn putting eye drops for myself as I need to do it HOURLY. Or else, I believe I will be having problems tmrw in school=s

Visited ESCAPE THEME PARK today ! After so long, I finally had the chance to visit that place. They were Mildred, Urania, Esther, Zeelia, Bebe, BABY & ME of course. As Esther had free tickets which entitled to only 4 of us, the rest of us agreed forking out ourselves:)

However, that blurr Esther didn't notice that those tickets were only valid til 23rd of April which was like days ago !!

So, fair enough, everyone paid $16.50 while Bebe paid only $8.50. And guess what? The 3 most exciting rides for under maintenence !!! We were initially hesitating whether to continue our plan as not all rides were opened, but the Aunty at the ticket booth told us that we were able to come back within 3 months once more for absolutely FREE! Sounded quite reasonable and we all agreed:)

BABY'S & Bebe's smelly feet=x

Dont know why, but there're millions of BANGALAHS today

The ladies whom I love

okay! I admit I feared this ride =p

Bebe, where're you looking at?

Ahh~ That's better:)

What's e diff between this & e 1 be4? Well, I dont know either=x

Im to BIG & HEAVY for this :(

i love A-wei :)

LOVE Mildred too (:

Awww.. Aren't they adorable?

BABY thinks she's cute:)

Left the theme park at abt 5pm as Mom came to find us. Her motive here was to pass Mildred her Hp as she left it at home. While on the other hand, I believe she dont feel safe, leaving Bebe with us. Wahahas=x As we all were tired and thirsty, we settled down at Subway:) Not long after, Urania went home, the rest headed back to my house and I accompanied BABY back his home for dinner:)

The dinner prepared by his 4th aunt was yummilicious ! After dinner, BABY came home with me to collect some of his stuffs as he need to return back to camp by 12 midnight. Poor BABY, got guard duty tmrw:(







Though BABY just left a few mins ago, but Im alrdy starting to miss him alot. We spend almost 24hrs together these few days and Im so used to having him by me. It's a Sat night and Im all alone by myself. I simply HATE this feeling alot. Who's gonna see me to sleep? Covering the blanket for me? Taking off my specs off my face? Switching off the lights so as I wont trip if I were to do that? Putting eye drops for me? And most importantly, kissing my forehead before turning in?
Seems like Im relying to much on BABY. But who cares? I just want him here, by me.

Sometimes I really wish BABY could just finish that darn amry that he's serving for right now. If it's not for that, we wouldn't have so many problems especially quarrels. I've been enduring, tolerating and holding on for almost a year which many times, I almost gave up. Wonder how are we gonna survive thru another year.


Well, besides compromising one another, I truly hope that god would bless us both:)

27/o4/o7 FRIDAY

Went out with BABY :) First to White Sands to settle our dinner. Had Char Kway Tiao while BABY had the fried Hokkien Mee. Both were fantastically fabulous. 5 thumbs up !!! Shld be good standard as BABY queeued very long for the 2 plates okay !!!

Dont try to act innocent BABY !!

Headed off to Wisma. Was hoping to get some new clothes, but nothing caught my eye until the very last min when we were abt to leave, I spotted this black spag top from Yin & Yang:)

As the shopping was getting kinda bored, BABY & I suggested to catch a movie. Hence, we headed to PS, our fav location. We have been wanting so much to watch the Hills Have Eyes 2, but is rated R21. But BABY insisted on watching that. So, after much consideration & hesitation, BABY walked straight to the counter and bought the tickets. And YES !! BABY did it !!! We've got the tickets !!

It was an hour be4 11.40pm which was our show time, we walked, slacked and even played the arcade games to kill time. And in between all these, I was annoying BABY,complaining to him that I was afraid that the lady would stop us when we enter, while producing our tickets.

Fortunately, everything went smoothly and we caught the movie in peace:) Yes !! The show is violently disgusting and gross. Worst then the part 1 and the Turistas. But I just couldn't understand why is it rated R21 when M18 shld be considered reasonable. Anyway, It's got nthg to do with me anymore as I've caught the movie.. YEAHS ~~~~

Okay, off to call BABY !! Nites people :)

BOREDOM !!!

Stayed at home the whole day with the exception of accompanying BABY to polyclinic this morning and back to his home to take some clothes over my house this evening.

YEAHS~ BABY IS ABLE TO ACCOMPANY ME TO CGH TMRW !! Well, the trip down to polyclinic is all worthwhile afterall(:

While we BABY & I were lazy-ing around at home, we snapped some pictures !! These pictures are non-edited and Im 100% without make-ups !!! So pls pardon me with the disgusting pics :)

My poor poor eyes:(

Guess my lil` Rascal is suffering from depression & wanna attempt suicide =x

BABY told me to do this :(

oops =x

Yeahs~ Im feeling really happy these two days. Haven't felt like this for kinda long time. It's been years and I believe that it's isn't easy to break the bond between us. Hope we'll be like we used to be :)

MINOR OPERATION

Didnt attend school today. However, Im wasn't so lucky to sleep as much as I want. Woken up by Mom this morning as early as 8am. Went to the polyclinic as my eyes were bloody red and could hardly open. And DAMN the crowd there, I waited for 2 solid hours before I was able to consult the doctor.

Had my eyes checked and the sore in my throat. I was referred to the specialist at CHG. Mom wanted SG as she said CGH stands for Cant Go Home. How lame can she be.

However, the doctor said that the schedule for the eye specialist at SG today was packed and the only way out is to visit the A&E if we insisted on SG which the consultation fees would be much more expensive.

Hence, Dad came to pick us and drove us to CG. Got myself registered and the clerk said I've got to wait approximately about 3~4 hrs. WTH ! Another waiting again. I might as well spend more money instead of waiting.

Fortunately, it wasn't as bad as what the clerk said. Within half an hour, I consulted the young pretty specialist (:

Guess she's probably a greenhorn as she had to call for another older doctor who seemed kinda more experienced.

After spending abt nearly 30 mins in the room with the doctors, they still don't know what actually was wrong with my eyes. There were just 2 possibilities which were either normal sore eye or parasight infection.

Hence, in order to be accurate, the doctor had to perform a minor surgery on my eye !!

After taking a few pictures of different sides of my eyes which I dont know why is this necessary, the doctor did the scraping which was the final step be4 everything was done. She scrap off some samples of the cornea (I guess) from both sides of my eyes to bring for lab test. Be4 the scraping was done, the doctor dripped some solution into my eyes which caused the numb effect.

In case if you wanna know how it felt, well, it felt nthg as the numb effect really works. But this was just temporary. Once the effect was gone, (which was abt 10 mins later), I started to feel a little pain and sore in my eyes. OUCH ! And what's more, I wasn't able to open my eyes when there's sunlight or the light is too bright.

Got MC til this Friday which is my next appointment. And shit it ! Im missing many lessons and I believe I'll have difficulties catching up:( Hopefully teachers is able to slot me into their busy schedule to do the make-up lessons.

Coincidentally, BABY had a minor op today too. He went to NUH to get his Viral Walts removed. And he'd got 2 days MC ! How nice ~ So he's here tonight and tomorrow to take care of me:) Yeahs ~~~ But, he's got to booked in by tomorrow's night. Which means, he's not gonna accompany me down for my appointment this friday:( Mom&Dad wont be going with me either as they need to get on with work after resting so many days since the trip to HK.

So, the poor poor me is left all alone by myself.

Any good samaritans would like to accompany me down ? wahahahas=x

HAPPINESSSSSSSSSSSS

Feeling really happy today too. Finally, Im getting in touch with HER. Things are getting on smoothly. After all, she's isn't that heartless as what we thought. Hopefully things will turn out better and to be back to our usual us(:

No rush nor worries, we'll take each step at a time (:

FUCK IT !!!

Guess it's a UNLUCKY DAY for me today. Went to school as usual and was excited that I was able to go home early. But god doesn't seemed to favour me. It rained heavily.

After the last lesson, cutie Lydia spotted the redness in my left eye. AND YES !!! My eye is getting red again! Fcuk it ! And whats more, Shamilah, who always travel with me had already left for home as I stayed back to continue my projects.

So the poor poor me travel all the way from school back home ALONE ! Can u imagine that? Along the journey, I realised that Im actually a weakling who cannot be alone all by myself. Oh god! When can I start learning to be independent? Called Mom while I was on e way back home, asking her out for lunch as I have not ate since I got up from my bed. I was so hungry that I could feel the hunger punch in my stomach. But Mom, coincidentally was busy with some stupid stuffs and wasn't free for me.

Fortunately, I had MILDRED ! Both Angela & her ran out from their lesson just to meet me for lunch. Dont know how they did it, but I've still got to thank them(: Guess that being able to settle my stomach is the only good thing that went well.

Dad & Mom was furious when they saw me [esp MOM]. YES ! It was bcox of my eye. I know they both were worried, but the I truly think that they were kinda too harsh with me. Feeling really blue right now. It wasn't my intention for my eye to be like this. Who on earth would know that my eye hasn't fully recovered besides the optician of course.

Mom suggested to take me to CGH tmrw. But I've got lessons all the way from 8pm ~ 5pm. Almost the whole day. As they were very particular & concern abt my damn eye, they allowed me to skip school tmrw .

And now, here's the problem. I wanna heal my eye, & on the contary, I wanna go school for lessons. The lecturers are going really fast and if Im gonna miss any of the lesson, then i'll be doom.

FCUK IT ! WHY CAN GOD JUST SIMPLY GRANT ME BLODDY HEALTHY EYE? I dont ask for perfect eyesight. All I wan is a eye that it's cornea wont be damaged so easily.

Accidentally came across this which I found meaningful. Suddenly remembered smthg which again, tore my heart. Yes, I truly agree that we humans are not encouraged to bear grudges and be forgiving.

However, things weren't as easy as how others thought. Even how much you dont wanna bear grudges or regret, but that thing simply not giving me the opportunity to do so. Well, what the thing is, I seriously dont know how to explain.

Alright, let's replace that thing with a HER instead. Maybe you'll undertsand more.

I've tried holding on, wanting to go back. But she isn't the same anymore. She's leading a new life now and she seemed happy & satisfied with it. As for the others, everyone prefered the old her. Comments were that she's becoming even more vulgar, changing from a feminine and lovable HER to someone who seemed rough and violence.

Nobody knows what caused that change to HER. Probably the influence of friends or some other reasons. Well, I dont know for others, but it's kinda heartaching for me to see HER being like this. Not those kindof devastation, but just a little disappointment.

Well, like what the others said, it's isn't my business anymore. She loves being like this and HER current life now and all we could do is to wish HER best to her future enveadours. Hoping she knows HER priority, what she wants in future and the kindof woman she wanna be:)

Having a slight migrain since yesterday night. Dont know why, but Im always feeling so lethargic nowadays. Is it bcox due to insufficient sleeps everyday ? My period? or bcox of some other reasons? Well, Im unsure either. If I know, I wouldn't be getting up so early in the morning to be in school adding more knowledge into my brains.

Oh yes, gradually, im getting sick of school. Not bcox of the peeps, but bcox of the time I need to get my ass up from my comfy bed and dragged myself with heavy eyelids to school. Though the time isn't much different from sec sch time, but the curriculum hours is much more longer ! With the exception of somedays of course(:

Anyway, back to yesterday. Went out with BABY. First to Ps to get our movie tickets. Yes, we're kiasu as we were getting 9.25 tics at only abt 3pm! Typical Singaporeans ~ Walked passed kfc and we settled our dinner there. We tried the new bbq chicken meltz. For me, it tasted quite normal and nthg much special but BABY loves it alot.

Was supposed to meet Mildred & Co at bugis, but the girls weren't ready yet. Hence, in order to kill time, BABY and I WALKED all the way from PS to Marina Square which was suggested by BABY. Didn't know it was damn freaking far . Though the journey was a lil` tiring, but BABy & I had a great time, strolling, chit chatting, joking and of course, gossiping.

It was merely 15 mins after I reached MS and Mildred called. As I haven shopped the entire place yet, Mildred suggested to meet us at MS! Yeahs~

And at MS, I got myself a 3/4 white pants & a yellow spag top from Zara & a pair of high heeled shoes. Mildred got one exactly like mine either. And Yeahs~ we've got the same pair of shoes !!!!

As it was abt time for the movie. BABY & I left for PS. And on the way. We saw this shop selling ice creams with triangular shaped cone. How sweet. So, we stopped over and had our passion fruit cone. We both were enjoying the ice cream so much that we didn't notice that our walking pace had been reduced. It was alrdy 9.10 when we looked at the watch and we were only at city link !!! Damn it ! So both BABY & I ran all the way to the mrt, out from the train and all the way up to the cinema. And I was panting like some kinda crazy woman .

Luckily, we were just in time for the movie(: The run was all worthwhile.

Caught the show turistas. Overall wasn't that bad. Probably a 3.5 starts. Violence gore.. You were able to see how the man operated on the woman and digging out all her organs. Stomach, Liver, Kidneys, intestines etcetc.. Now I understand why it's rated M18 .

The next movie I wanna watch so much is Hills Hv Eyes 2. Have watched part 1 as Esther had the vcd. The story line is a lil` same like Turistas. However, it's rated R21. Guess it'll be kinda difficult for me :(